confusion spreads
day in
day out
i try to make
tiny adjustments
in order to feel
i’m being a better
person
some days it feels right
like when i let somebody
share my taxi
on a crowded friday afternoon
and wouldn’t let them pay
but that kind of deed
is the easy stuff
and i still feel as if
i founder at other times
when it matters more.
it’s the post-holiday slump
of course
i’m trying to
feel relevant
i’m trying to
feel useful
i’m trying to
reconnect
but it’s going to take some time
and maybe i’ll never really be sure
when it’s done.