some days
you feel frozen by the future
so many things to try
and remember to do
on monday
that sunday becomes
a blur of worry
you find yourself
lost in “what if?” land
as you do the vacuuming
and try to think
of ways to spend your sunday
“just like other people do”
without leaving the house
even going so far as to
watch a DVD
but the numbness
scrapes up your body
and you know
you should’ve gone outside.