rust and fury

rust and fury
i tried to tame it

i tried to help

i lay myself bare

i did things i never want

to do again

but i will

because once you know

how to do these things

you can’t un-know them

and when the meek

ask for help

one’s heart melts a little

and you feel

happy to be useful

even trivially so

for an hour or two

sometimes knowing something

so internally hateful

after so long

can bring joy

or at least


to others.