weary bones

a number of times lately
I’ll hear a song
or an album by someone
from around 7 years ago
and think
“was it really that long ago?
I never let that one sink in
like I did their earlier work”
and then I wonder
why everything changed
in those recent years?
why did I stop?

why did I stop
enjoying things like that?

The horror creeps in
making awful suggestions
that I’d rather not contemplate.