rust and fury

rust and fury

i tried to tame it
i tried to help
i lay myself bare
i did things i never want
to do again
but i will
because once you know
how to do these things
you can’t un-know them
and when the meek
ask for help
one’s heart melts a little
and you feel
happy to be useful
even trivially so
for an hour or two
sometimes knowing something
so internally hateful
after so long
can bring joy
or at least
relief
to others.